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Thursday, June 30, 2011
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Blogging, school (on-line) , life, etc. etc...............geesh!
I AM TIRED. I am confused, I am being mellow dramatic, I feel ignored, thworthed,(SP?) and somewhat left behind.
I found myself this morning, thinking about my Mother, which is nothing new, she was always the one who kept me focused. even when she was not physically there. I was feeling like I needed to talk with some one. I was going through a mental list of confidants, in my head of who I could share my latest angst with. My husband was not one, because he just spent the last week with me and I am sure he got his months worth of my rants and raves. He is always a great sport about listening and allowing me my time to revel in my despair, but I am careful to not over burden him with my own baggage as he carries his own and rarely puts it down to breath. So there I was, thinking to myself, "I will talk to Mom about this, oh wait! I can not! She died almost eight years ago!" Oh woe is me, more crap to add to my own despair.
So, there I sit, no body to talk to. Wait!! I can blog and dump it all out there for the world to see, to smell, to touch and get all dirty with my garbage. awh, handing it off to the rest of mankind to revel in.Yes! that is what i will do, but first i have to sort the laundry, clean the kitchen, take the kids to the park, and go pick up my medication. By then, i will not need to blog and you all will be left hanging there, wondering..............
Gee, that is not very nice. I will have to think of something...........hmnmmm, I am sure I can conjur up some thing mellow dramatic and colorful to blog about, maybe it will be real AND then, maybe it won't. ;)
That is all.........for now.
I found myself this morning, thinking about my Mother, which is nothing new, she was always the one who kept me focused. even when she was not physically there. I was feeling like I needed to talk with some one. I was going through a mental list of confidants, in my head of who I could share my latest angst with. My husband was not one, because he just spent the last week with me and I am sure he got his months worth of my rants and raves. He is always a great sport about listening and allowing me my time to revel in my despair, but I am careful to not over burden him with my own baggage as he carries his own and rarely puts it down to breath. So there I was, thinking to myself, "I will talk to Mom about this, oh wait! I can not! She died almost eight years ago!" Oh woe is me, more crap to add to my own despair.
So, there I sit, no body to talk to. Wait!! I can blog and dump it all out there for the world to see, to smell, to touch and get all dirty with my garbage. awh, handing it off to the rest of mankind to revel in.Yes! that is what i will do, but first i have to sort the laundry, clean the kitchen, take the kids to the park, and go pick up my medication. By then, i will not need to blog and you all will be left hanging there, wondering..............
Gee, that is not very nice. I will have to think of something...........hmnmmm, I am sure I can conjur up some thing mellow dramatic and colorful to blog about, maybe it will be real AND then, maybe it won't. ;)
That is all.........for now.
Information~ maybe, just maybe, this will get your attention.
By Bonnie Erbe, Thomas Jefferson Street blog
If you can’t persuade them for the right reasons, then scare them with the facts.
A new paper in the journal Food & Chemical Toxicology shows how dangerous American horse meat is for human consumption.
Americans should stop selling horses for slaughter abroad because we love our horses and do not treat them as livestock. That’s the right reason to stop this incredibly cruel practice. Still, millions of greedy horse owners and breeders send horses off to slaughter because it’s more remunerative than not breeding at all or even having them euthanized.
But according to this new paper, humans who consume horse meat (most often overseas and especially in France, Italy, Japan and Belgium) are at risk for being poisoned by Phenylbutazone or “bute.” It’s a nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drug originally developed for treating severe cases of arthritis, but it was later found to…
The paper’s authors call it a “significant health hazard” for people to consume horse meat. I hope this information is highly promulgated throughout horse-consuming societies in Europe and Asia.
No Matter how you Cut It, Horse Slaughter Kills both Horses AND Humans
If you can’t persuade them for the right reasons, then scare them with the facts.
A new paper in the journal Food & Chemical Toxicology shows how dangerous American horse meat is for human consumption.
Americans should stop selling horses for slaughter abroad because we love our horses and do not treat them as livestock. That’s the right reason to stop this incredibly cruel practice. Still, millions of greedy horse owners and breeders send horses off to slaughter because it’s more remunerative than not breeding at all or even having them euthanized.
But according to this new paper, humans who consume horse meat (most often overseas and especially in France, Italy, Japan and Belgium) are at risk for being poisoned by Phenylbutazone or “bute.” It’s a nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drug originally developed for treating severe cases of arthritis, but it was later found to…
“cause serious and lethal idiosyncratic adverse effects in humans. Sixty-seven million pounds of horsemeat derived from American horses were sent abroad for human consumption last year. Horses are not raised as food animals in the United States and, mechanisms to ensure the removal of horses treated with banned substances from the food chain are inadequate at best.”Bute is still routinely used not just at the thoroughbred racetrack, which is what the authors of this paper studied, but also by horse owners nationwide to mitigate pain for all sorts of horse injuries. Horses do not have the same lethal reaction to bute that humans can display, although long-term use of bute for horses can create ulcers and other organ damage.
The paper’s authors call it a “significant health hazard” for people to consume horse meat. I hope this information is highly promulgated throughout horse-consuming societies in Europe and Asia.
Thursday, June 2, 2011
Rants and raves ~ I do this at times.
I am a military spouse, among all the other rolls in my life. This one brings no more pride than any of the others, but it demands the most out of me.
One thing I have noticed through out my career as a military spouse, is that people look at you and see some sort of woman made of steel, like you are unbreakable, well it may be true to a certain degree. But Military spouses are just people. Just regular people who have been handed a large task. Wether the task is difficult or not is entirely up to how you handle it, or don't handle it.We put up with alot and also do it , quite a bit of the time, alone. But then there are a whole slew of single parents out there that do it all the time. That is not really what I am ranting about. I know how it works and I deal with it. I don't complain, I just take things as they come and remember that when my spouse retires, it will be done. I will have the rest of our life together to spend with him and we will have an OK retirement to go along with whatever my income will be at that time.
What I get upset about is actually with in the Military community. This whole idea that deployment is the only stressed out time, or that a military spouse only needs support when the Soldier is on Deployment. Or that the children are only affected when Mommy or daddy are deployed.
Ya see, we are not Active Duty, and we are not National Guard. We are Active Guard and Reserve. that means my husband is full time, but he is in the National Guard. We get some of the benefits of being full time, like a job, but alot of the benefits that go along with Active Duty, does not apply. Like, a big one, support, being involved with other military with in a community. Inside that community if your car breaks down, or you get sick, there is a community of support there to help 24/7. There is none of that in the AGR.
In fact, you might as well crawl off the planet because Big Army doesn't give a S--- about you, and neither does regular guard. Regular Guard things that you get more than you deserve. This is all how it feels, by the way you get treated when it comes to needs. And there is just not programs out there set up for those that fit into this category. (AGR) Besides this, I get so tired of listening to other spouses whine about the spouses being gone. Ok, I know they are deployed, and it is dangerous. Hey, you are married to a soldier, be proud, but don't whine about it. There are lots of tragedy's in the world. my husband is gone except for 8 days out of every month. Because the full time job, which in the economy today, is a difficult thing to come across or hold on to, is 4 hours away. We don't get extra pay like separation pay. Though our family is pulled apart and suffers just as much as if we were experiencing separation of a deployment, and we pay for this. It cost extra money out of his pay to hold two living spaces. We are not splurging either. He lives in a motor home. It is not the Ritz. He does not get paid danger pay either, and it is dangerous driving on these high ways. Alot of people die every day in automobile accidents. But there is no compensation for what he is doing for the Uniform.
"Well, he comes home on his weekends", (as long as he has it off, Cars break down, animals run out of food, house hold items break down, I GET SICK. life does not stop just for me, just because my husband is not deployed but has to go out of town every week for his job in the military.
The whining and the complaining and the "oh look at me, I am a military spouse and my spouse is deployed, so I am more important than anyone else" kind of attitude makes me sick.
Ambulance chasers, attention hounds, call it what ever you want. It is exhausting to listen to. Get over it and get on with your life, do something good for you and your kids and quit complaining, so when your spouse does come home they can enjoy you rather than have to be responsible for all your misery from when they were gone.
By the way, I have managed to live through 2 deployments, one with a storm that was compared to the Columbus day storm on the Oregon Coast and the other, My son was born and my Mother passed away. I survived, and didn't need alot of outside support. No body took my picture, no body gave me an award. It was my job to hold it together and take care of my kids, and that is what I did. GAHHH!
One thing I have noticed through out my career as a military spouse, is that people look at you and see some sort of woman made of steel, like you are unbreakable, well it may be true to a certain degree. But Military spouses are just people. Just regular people who have been handed a large task. Wether the task is difficult or not is entirely up to how you handle it, or don't handle it.We put up with alot and also do it , quite a bit of the time, alone. But then there are a whole slew of single parents out there that do it all the time. That is not really what I am ranting about. I know how it works and I deal with it. I don't complain, I just take things as they come and remember that when my spouse retires, it will be done. I will have the rest of our life together to spend with him and we will have an OK retirement to go along with whatever my income will be at that time.
What I get upset about is actually with in the Military community. This whole idea that deployment is the only stressed out time, or that a military spouse only needs support when the Soldier is on Deployment. Or that the children are only affected when Mommy or daddy are deployed.
Ya see, we are not Active Duty, and we are not National Guard. We are Active Guard and Reserve. that means my husband is full time, but he is in the National Guard. We get some of the benefits of being full time, like a job, but alot of the benefits that go along with Active Duty, does not apply. Like, a big one, support, being involved with other military with in a community. Inside that community if your car breaks down, or you get sick, there is a community of support there to help 24/7. There is none of that in the AGR.
In fact, you might as well crawl off the planet because Big Army doesn't give a S--- about you, and neither does regular guard. Regular Guard things that you get more than you deserve. This is all how it feels, by the way you get treated when it comes to needs. And there is just not programs out there set up for those that fit into this category. (AGR) Besides this, I get so tired of listening to other spouses whine about the spouses being gone. Ok, I know they are deployed, and it is dangerous. Hey, you are married to a soldier, be proud, but don't whine about it. There are lots of tragedy's in the world. my husband is gone except for 8 days out of every month. Because the full time job, which in the economy today, is a difficult thing to come across or hold on to, is 4 hours away. We don't get extra pay like separation pay. Though our family is pulled apart and suffers just as much as if we were experiencing separation of a deployment, and we pay for this. It cost extra money out of his pay to hold two living spaces. We are not splurging either. He lives in a motor home. It is not the Ritz. He does not get paid danger pay either, and it is dangerous driving on these high ways. Alot of people die every day in automobile accidents. But there is no compensation for what he is doing for the Uniform.
"Well, he comes home on his weekends", (as long as he has it off, Cars break down, animals run out of food, house hold items break down, I GET SICK. life does not stop just for me, just because my husband is not deployed but has to go out of town every week for his job in the military.
The whining and the complaining and the "oh look at me, I am a military spouse and my spouse is deployed, so I am more important than anyone else" kind of attitude makes me sick.
Ambulance chasers, attention hounds, call it what ever you want. It is exhausting to listen to. Get over it and get on with your life, do something good for you and your kids and quit complaining, so when your spouse does come home they can enjoy you rather than have to be responsible for all your misery from when they were gone.
By the way, I have managed to live through 2 deployments, one with a storm that was compared to the Columbus day storm on the Oregon Coast and the other, My son was born and my Mother passed away. I survived, and didn't need alot of outside support. No body took my picture, no body gave me an award. It was my job to hold it together and take care of my kids, and that is what I did. GAHHH!
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